There were 6 good days in January of 2019 for me. On the 7th day my life changed. It all began with a phone call I received at work about 11:30 am. Shortly after this call I left work, and stayed at home for 2 days in complete shock. I never thought I’d be here. Who does? I’m going into my senior years not as I expected. Sixty -two years old, working full time, and packing my life into little boxes to start over again. Could this be possible? I’ve been mentally set to slow down, take it easy, travel, do fun things and lose some of the responsibilities . Nope not going to happen for me! Not in the divine plan for me! Why? Because I just got dumped by the person I trusted most in the world! Years ago I saw an episode of Sex in the City. It was the episode where Carrie gets dumped by her boyfriend Berger on a post-it note. Feel like Carrie had an explanation- “I’m sorry I can’t Don’t hate me”. Not much of one but something. I was blindsided . When I asked for an explanation all I got was “You want a list? What good would that do now?” Fact is he told everyone we were unhappy, except for one person. That would be ME!
So I kissed him goodbye on the morning of the 7th. He told me I looked pretty. One of the last things I asked him that morning was well what are you going to do today? Oh stuff he replied. Little did I know that in a few hours I’d understand what that stuff was. Hooking up the trailer and moving his STUFF out of our home. I left work and came home. I sat in a chair and stared out the window for hours. I was in shock. I took down the Christmas decorations on the second day in no time at all. Just keep busy, keep moving and you wont feel anything. This numbness and shock lasted through January!
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