Here comes the Sun

Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it’s all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it’s all right

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
And I say it’s all right
It’s all right Songwriter: George Harrison

The brightness of the summer sun dissipates the harshness of a long cold winter. The summer is a time of fun, friendship, and for me new beginnings.

I am putting aside the bitterness, the hurt, and disappointment. Time to move toward a better place in my life. I know that what has to change is within me. I believe this is happening. I feel the movement.

Expanding the horizon. Moving forward. Changing things in my life and about myself so that I am not drawn toward old nonproductive ways. I do not wish to act precipitously.

I sit and meditate on just what it is that I want. What is it that I need.  So I have developed a happiness wish list for myself. To move on I  need new living arrangements, a change of scenery. That is the best start. I have lived in the country for the past twenty years. I would either like to live on a nice city street with close access to shopping, and restaurants. I have also looked at homes on the outskirts of town which are built closer together. Either way I would be more connected to neighbors than my present situation. Spending time exploring “open houses” I have seen some of the best, as well as some of the worst homes. I love to cook. One factor in a home which is crucial  is to find the kitchen of my dreams. I have always wanted a beautiful kitchen with ample counter space and nice cabinets. A pantry would be wonderful. I am looking for a a small ranch with a nice basement, first floor laundry with up to date equipment, wood floors, an all seasons room, a controllable  yard with a  deck, and a nice front porch where I can sit out and watch the neighbors. A nice quite street, with some activity and kids.   Most important the house must be move in ready or very close to that. Now that I have that covered there are other things necessary to my future happiness.

I would enjoy some male companionship. There would be specific criteria if you want to be in my company. At first I would just enjoy someone nice to go to restaurants, shows, concerts, and plays. He can spend some quality time with me and then we would go our separate ways. Whatever the future holds for me if I were to get involved in a relationship I would like to find someone WHO IS HONEST. Someone who RESPECTS  me, and MUST be GOOD to my children and hopefully grandchildren.  Someone who enjoys cooking, likes dogs, and has healthy habits would be ideal. I want to travel so this person MUST enjoy travel. I would love someone to take walks with me, and enjoys outside activities. I would love someone who enjoys entertaining, and assists  in the preparation, and clean-up.  I want someone who treats me as their Number One. I would be their best friend and put before others. A loving soul who makes me feel good about myself.   I presume this type of man exists, and if he does I certainly hope to meet him. It’s not only the companionship. It’s about trust, love, loyalty, and the feeling that you are their special one.  That is what  I need, and never really found. I have never been treated special but someday I will find this person. Until then I will continue to have fun with friends, go to concerts and outings, and laugh a lot.  I have never been able to relax, and just be myself. It is fun and certainly a new adventure!