I am just a poor boy though my story’s seldom told I have squandered my existence On a pocket full of mumbles such are promises All lies in jest, till a man hears what he wants to hear And disregards the rest…….. In the clearing stands a boxer and a fighter by his trade And he carries the reminders Of every bloke that laid him down or cleft him Till he cried out in his anger and his shame I am leaving, I am leaving But the fighter still remains By: Simon and Garfunkel

Sometimes the fight is no longer necessary. You sort through the nonsense that was your truth and you wonder why you ever made it your truth. Perhaps it is because it was easier that way. Perhaps the path ahead was too blurry.

Tired of fighting this fight. Why bother. Not that I am resigned to roll over. I just can see through lies, deception, bullying, and emotional triggers that once caused me unrest. I am content with the life ahead. I say this often but I do firmly believe that we only get one chance.  What remains will not be wasted on a fight about nonsense.  That one chance will be spent in a positive fashion. I will seek new opportunities, new endeavors to find that happiness that I so desire. Those who have meant all that is good, kind, thoughtful and genuine I will take with me. Those who have proven to lack integrity, do not know how to be truthful, or show compassion for others will be left behind. I will have no regrets.

Yet I will start my new life with a bit of apprehension. The unknown can be a bit unsettling. But it is definitely worth the many experiences of meeting people who are role models, who capture what is good and kind in the world by giving their best to those in need.

Finally the process of selling this property has been put in motion. Unsure of the timeline, unsure of where I will settle but I have gone through so much more than this. I will find my way. Not knowing where your going lends itself to the indecision of what you need to bring with you. I have a bit too much so I need just to keep what is functionally adequate, things that have meaning, and things I will use. I will keep things I am emotionally connected to.

Where I will live is also in question. I really want to go back to my roots. Not exactly where I grew up, but to a county that I can relate to. A county with values and beliefs closer to my own. I have a bit of time so I will carefully consider this. So much to think about and so many decisions to make. Hopefully I will make the right ones.

In the past 10months I have been through a lifetime of events. I will remain strong. I will fight for my values. Cause nothing will bring me down at this point!