Hey tomorrow….

I’m standing looking at my reflection in the mirror.   I can say that I am not looking at the person I was a year ago.   I have changed from the inside out.  I am no longer apt to put up with things as I had in the past. I am beginning to find my soul. What I am and who I am,  is exposed to anyone that cares enough to notice.

I stand before myself and say that I am trying to surround myself with those in the past and present who I deem to be genuine. Not only do I need honesty, I demand it from others. I am being honest and forthright in my words, actions and decision making. If I make a mistake I will acknowledge it and live with it. I am what I am. I do not need acceptance from anyone but myself.

I am not that person in the past that had no voice. Too many years of letting another voice speak for me. Their words often misrepresented who I was. I have found the ability to convey my thoughts. I am finding the ability to actualize my hopes and dreams.  All my life music has been important to me. It isn’t the melody but rather the lyrics that touch my soul. I sang out songs that hinted to bits and pieces of  myself.   That is why I find a song for each blog.

I have changed. I will not accept deception.  I have no use for divisive people in my life. I know I have and will struggle with trust. That is because my youth and my adult life has been riddled with lies by the two men I have shared my time with. I jumped from one bad relationship into another at an early age. Will not do that again. I am older and wiser.  A wisdom that comes only with age.

I need affirmations.  Without affirmation there is no relationship.  Time, you make time to build relationships that have any worth.  It’s a busy world, but I make time to do the things I love with the people I love. That was always lacking in my marriage. He did things with me when he had nothing else to do, or was committed to do an activity.  My motto now is no time left for me, then no time is left for you. On my way to better things. This is a restatement from a previous blog. If I ever get involved again it will be with some loving person who puts me first.   So I look in the mirror and I see a reflection.  It’s  not a frail, confused, nor bedraggled  woman. I stand tall and proud of my accomplishments.  I know what I want out of this life and I will find it. No more wasted time.

Hey tomorrow, where are you goin’ Do you have some room for me  ‘Cause night is fallin’ and the dawn is callin’  I’ll have a new day if she’ll have me.   Hey tomorrow , I can’t show you nothin’  You’ve seen it all pass by your door So many times I said I’ve been changin’ Then slipped into patterns of what happened before ‘Cause I’ve been wasted and I’ve over- tasted All the things that life gave to me   And I’ve been trusted, abused and busted And I’ve been taken by those close to me Hey tomorrow, you gotta believe that I’m through wastin’ what’s left of me ‘Cause night is fallin’ and the dawn is callin’   I’ll have a new day if she’ll have me.    By: Guess